some hard feeling after attending ah ma's wake. I stick to my stand as a Christian n therefore a lot of stuff i didn't do, but things tt i can do, i'll do it with my best.

Wanna take dis chance to thank those hu had visited me during e 3 days wake. Even though i may look okay to u, but deep down in me, i'm really going through a lot of pain.

Last night which is e final night of e wake, i stay all throughout e night n did not slp, guess dis is e least thing tt i can do at least for my ah ma ba? Through my relative, i get to know my ah ma younger days, gosh, she was a "hong tao jin" n build roads, houses and other building in e early days of S'pore in order to bring up 7 children of hers. Really it's not ez, especially w ah gong not ard. I can imagine how much suffering she had to go through as a woman. I really respect n salute her for tt. She worked so hard in her younger days n even her old days she had to suffer too.

Early in e morning today, i went n stand next to her coffin n managed to talk to her when no one noticed, i juz wanna see her for e last time n bid her farewell. I believe she can hears me when i talk to her. Thought her body is dead but i know her spirit is listening. Can't hold back my tears n i cried again. Can't really believe tt she's gone already.

Accompany her to her final journey to Mandai, my heart really melts there. My own eyes saw her body goes into e furnace, it's a painful sight to see...Ah ma, wherever u r now, dun worry abt us le, go in peace... may ur soul rest in a place where u can find peace. U're always have a place in my heart...